And why am I doing this?

I turned 44 yesterday.
I am not going to turn 45 at this weight.

Am I generally happy with myself?  Yes.  Am I am happy when I look in the mirror?  Not so much.  I want to be able to wear the size 10s that fill my closet.  I want to wear a bathing suit and not be dreading every.single.moment.  I want to be able to not second guess if I have a second chin going on.  Ultimately.  I want to proud of how I look.  Again.

I just weighed myself and looked up my BMI.  I have officially tiptoed into the world of overweight.  It was not always like this.  Unlike most of the weight loss journey blogs I have been reading - I have not always had a problem with weight.  I was actually quite thin and underweight until my early 30s and then a really, quite normal average weight.  Until the last year.  I have gained 10 pounds in one year.  And that really and truly sucks.  This is the BMI that gave me the sads.

I have read numerous times to lose weight - journal.  And here world.  Welcome to my journal.